I thought I would update you all at the same time as many of you have been asking where I am these days. Well, I'm staying with David (my brother) and his beautiful family in Denville, N.J. My house in Georgia is a mess and will need some work before I can put it on the market. Most of my "things" are still there — in Georgia — so I travel pretty light these days, with only what fit in my car (including three people) for the ride up north. It's an interesting way to live I can tell you that. It also makes everything seem so unreal.
I'm doing okay, with the help of family and great friends. I take every day as it comes as that is all I can do at the moment. Yesterday I attended a Brunner family gathering in honor of Chris and saw so many people that I hadn't seen in years. It was great to see them all again, especially his son, Matt. I really, really wish though that it had been under happier circumstances — as his brother Michael said to me, "this was supposed to be a welcome home for the two of you."
So from the bottom of my broken heart I want to thank you all for the cards, emails, Facebook messages, text messages and voicemails (though I think my inbox is now full, sorry). It has now been a month and although I am still struggling to find my way — and to wrap my head around what has happened — I will do my best to start responding. These last four-plus weeks have been a haul, but I won't apologize, I've been told constantly that I need to take care of myself first then do what I can when I feel I can. It's a hard thing for me to learn, but I'm trying. Chris would say I'm very trying. That was his humor. I miss him more and more as the days go by.Love,Joanne
